Vulnerability

Vulnerability is hard. When you are vulnerable, you can feel like you are losing a sense of control. I don’t know about you, but letting go of my control (or lack there of) is incredibly hard. To give you an idea, I had the idea of starting this blog up over 8 months ago. I had all of the best intentions to share my story and bring hope to so many other young women who are facing some similar storms that I have faced and to be honest, am currently still in the middle of. But fear crept in. Fear of being vulnerable. Fear of losing the sense of control I like to think I have. Fear of people knowing that behind the consistent smile I put on, I am struggling. Fear of answering that common question of “How are you?” truthfully. But you know what? It is okay to not be okay. Vulnerability can bring so much healing.

I started this blog with the mindset of sharing my journey when I reached the “end”. I wanted to share all about how God moved, answered prayers, gave me the desires of my heart. But then He put this little spark in my heart and said “Why share only the end result? Why not share the journey? The mountain tops, the valleys, all of it. That is how you show just how great I am.”

Vulnerability is what allows people to feel a connection. I know that I long for those personal connections with people. I like to know that I am not the only one facing difficulties. I like to know that I am not alone. So I can only assume that others feel the same way. So…here I am 8 months later ready to share my story. I am ready to share the past storms that the Lord delivered me from, the current ones I am in the middle of, and the future ones that will lie ahead. My hope and prayer is that these posts help you know you are not alone. You are loved, you are wanted, you have a purpose. Even when life can spin out of control and you begin to lose sight of all hope…there is beauty in every blemish.